It was anger that led
me to utilize Marxism to purify the world and it’s been Marxism that has been
keeping me excessively angry for thirty two years.
Every time I detected
moral imperfection in myself ,other people, capitalism, religion, nationalism, etc.,
I got all worked up and found myself in conflict with one or more, indeed,
millions more people and it was just plain dangerous—to myself and others.
If I truly want to be
a man of peace and progress, I need to let capitalism stand: it’s a tremendous
burden to wake up each day and think one has to start an economic and social revolution
and it makes me angry when I meet any form of resistance.
I know that there is
plenty of anger in conventional politics, too, but traditional liberals and
conservatives are angry at fewer people and things, thus they have more
restraint and self-control.
As for Judaism, it
seems to me that serious Jews understand the value in both conservatism and
liberalism and also understand that progress does not happen overnight: it can
be very slow and sometimes even seems impossible, depending on the situation.
Jews, for instance, believe
that anti-Semitism is probably a permanent phenomenon, whereas Craig the Marxist
believed that he could both reason and bully it out of people and do so in a
short period of time. It’s time to be a Jewish realist and acknowledge that
Jews are going to be scapegoats perhaps forever.
You have to continue
fighting racism, bigotry, poverty, economic exploitation and violence, but you
have to do so with patience and restraint. And you have to act democratically,
whereas radicals at both ends of the political spectrum, tend to harbor a
desire to hit people over the head.
I just hope that I can
make a sincere transition to liberalism, because in past years, I tried, but
failed. But I think that I am finally mentally and spiritually tired of
fighting lonely battles. It’s time to be reborn!
Craig R. Bayer,
4/12/16
